The Best Motivation.
Oh my son of a bitch!
okay i have yet another story of my past lol. It MUST be said in order for you to understand how MOTIVATED i am right now!
Have you guys ever found your Dream Guy. Well i have. A long time ago i met this guy, it was one of those "Fairy-Tale Meet Ups" type thing. I wont get into details. But we became fast friends, we had all the same friends and he was even my brothers friend (Score. he slept over hahah) - It was a small town everyone knew everyone - Anyways, i liked him for 4 years (i still do. its just.. we dont talk now) A LOT of drama went down between me and himm, everyone knew i liked him, everyone thought we would be perfect for eachother, but i guess he was to ashamed to be seen with me (unless just as friends) but at one point he DID like me but never said anything.
anyways. he got hit by a truck LMAO. STILL ALIVE. But he was hospitalized, i remember i left school and wlaked to the hospital to see him. an hour and a half walk.
after the accident hew as never the same... he started doing MORE drugs and stopped talking to me... i moved without saying good bye, and he randomly started talking to me once again (not recently) we hung out, he took my V-Card and kicked me out of the house the next morning. He was my first and last love. ever since then i don't believe in love, i dont think it exists, and i think its just an exaggeration. I was about 107lbs last i seen him, and before that i was about 125lbs. I always got so motivated when i was about to see him for the first time in forever, and i always restricted and stuck to my diet like a champ.
NOW. This guy has nothing to do with my current motivation, why i told you this? Well. There is this guy that i met a while back that was a duplicate of BOY#1. Even my friends said he reminded them of him, they figured thats why i like him.. which is mostly true.
He was REALLY funny MY KIND OF FUNNY, super nice, he was older though lol (the last guy was the same age as me). He had his own house and he was actually a sponsored skateboarder (The other guy was really good at skateboarding also). so anyways, we and GUY#2 hung out all the time (We just met last summer) he is a huge player though. but that just made me like him even more...
He backed off me for a while because his one friend liked me a lot (but he was a weirdo..i mean WEIRD, i have never seen someone so inlove with an iphone in my life...)
BUT! he just started talking to me again recently! asking me to hang out (Guy#2) Now. i have gained a bit of weight, but i DO NOT want to see him untill i am atleast 105 again. and i REALLY want to see him, just to hang out you know.
So..this was quite the post lmao.
But just thought i would share.
A VERY SEXY GUY THAT YOU ARE GOING TO HANG OUT WITH THAT YOU HAVENT SEEN IN FOREVER = GREAT MOTIVATION.
and im usually pretty isolated, boys bore me, they are a waste of time for me. but this guys is different.
If i cant have GUY#1 i can settle for a duplicate.
oh god im pathetic.
FASTING TOMORROW
