Controls mostly back.
Hello.
Some of you may have noticed I haven't been posting in a while hahaha I have been busy just living! chilling with my friends.
I managed to fast on Wednesday and I walked outside pretty much ALL day and then yesterday I managed to go most of the day without eating but around 8pm I had HALF a donut and one 35 calorie rice cake, which I purged.
TODAY though I slipped up, I binged. It wasn't to bad though some things were REALLY calorie filled. I started off with:
2 Cabbage leafs with salsa inside.
Vegetable Thin Crackers.
about 2 TBSP of cream cheese icing.
A few spoonfuls of peanut butter!
A BOWL (cereal bowl sized) of the cookie dough you make from scratch!
1 Rice cake (35 calories).
1 Banana.
And I THINK that's all. But I purged almost all of it if not all!
The only reason why I binged was my parents were fighting again. My mom locked herself in her room and my dad left, he still isnt back and im not sure where he is. Things like that usually trigger a binge and purge, my mom was in her room which is a few doors down from the bathroom I was purging in, Luckily I can purge quietly now..
Anyways its way easier to fast again though! Tomorrow I plan on fasting to kind of give my self a cleanse and then I'm going to eat one salad a day and maybe a rice cake also.
I'm not sure what my weight was last time I posted on here, I think it was around 113-114lbs I am now 110lbs.
Its not exactly a "safe" number for me, once I hit 109 I will be more happy.
I am also going to start writing out my "prize" or "reward" for each goal weight to keep me even more motivated.
Hope everyone else is doing just dandy! For those of you that have been following my blog and seeing how shitty I was doing in terms of restricting, and NOW reading this post and reading how I just did almost a 2 day fast, Hopefully that can show you guys that ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE haha
IF I CAN DO IT YOU DEFINITELY CAN!
Just don't give up, Keep trying and you WILL succeed.
