update/rant, guy friend, and funny story.
Well I failed I binged today and yesterday so my 2 day fast was basically pointless, but I have decided to stop thinking about food so much! It seems like the more I focus on losing weight the less I lose and the more I binge!
So for now on its going to be just go with the flow, watch movies, go out, work out, go to the mall etc.
I smoked weed today which resulted in me binging! terrible binge.
MUNCHIES + BINGING = FUCKING DEATH.
I plan to smoke more then play my wii fit. Marijuana helps boost metabolism hahha, I also plan to start drinking 2 green teas a day!
Tomorrow I am going to fast. Then like I said it will be like how it was before I would just pick at food all day (kept me under 200 calories). I know I can do it, I blame winter. Its so cold out it forces me to stay in the house!
Now things that aren't food related. My best guy friend and I (the only one who who knows about my Eating Disorder) totally hate each other now, His girlfriend is jealous of me, as in she thinks that I want him! lmfao what a skid! So shes "forbidding" him from seeing me, and he actually listened. He says as long as he is with her me and him cant be friends. What a joke. I deleted him off my MSN, Facebook and my cellphone. Its supposed to be BROS before HOES. apparently not according to him.
FUNNY STORY though. Today me and my friend decided to cause some trouble as usual, we went to our old high school (we got kicked out and they sent us to a school where students who get kicked out go) and there was a girl who was making fun of my friend and all this immature stuff, so we decided to be even MORE immature and put chewed gum and DOG SHIT yes DOG SHIT allll over her lock lol.
unfortunately they caught us on camera and we are in shit lol.
